June 7 '09 Hole in our Soul

This is written from my memory. Please contribute anything I missed in the comments section. TY, scb

Recently we at Center of Light have engaged in consciously shifting our identification of who we are from soul to Spirit.
(There was a time, probably when we were children, that we identified with our physical expression: “I am my body. I am hungry. I am tired. I am a victim and lotza folks are the boss of me.”
Then we came to recognize that we are more than our body, our body is a tool for experiencing, and probably, if we are engaged in New Thought, made that shift some time ago to identifying ourselves as soul: “I am what I think, therefore, I change my thoughts to change my feelings to recreate my world. I am a victor, an overcomer of my past misperceptions. I align my thoughts and feelings with spiritual ideas.”
When we came to recognize that we are more than our mind, our mind is a tool for creating and manifesting spiritual ideas (“I am healthy in mind and body, prosperous in all my affairs . . .”), we consciously began making the shift from identification with soul to Spirit. Or as DB said, ‘We always knew we HAD a Spirit, but we thought we were soul.”)

Now our reality is: We are that which we have been seeking. We are that we have been longing for.

Our practice . . . what 12, 15 times a day? . . . has been:
· Becoming conscious and aware in the present moment. Breathing in this eternal moment of now.
· “I am a spiritual being and this, right here and right now, is a spiritual experience.” Breathing in the fullness of this reality, resonating with the truth of this reality.
· Being in the moment fully aware that if heaven is where Spirit is, and this is where I Am, then this that I have created is heaven. Breathing in the perfection and wholeness of this moment.
· Loving and embracing what is. Breathing in the assurance of being loved and loving, of being valued and valuing, connected as a vibrant and vital part of the whole . . . in Oneness.
OK. We made up this process and are way open to other ideas for shifting our reality from soul to Spirit.
But let’s go back to soul for a moment . . . what is it? Our conversation this morning included some of the following ideas, theory and perceptions:
1. The soul is our personality.
2. The soul is the contract we established before we came into this incarnation. Some folks feel that the contract includes the lessons to be learned. However, we seem to agree that karma as personal ~ “I messed up in my last incarnation so I want to heal and clear that this time”~ may not be the way it is. It’s not about punishment(!) Our contract may be more about contributing to the collective consciousness with the intention of taking on an aspect of ‘the human experience’ for embracing, clearing, healing and transforming.
3. The soul is the role we play, not the truth of who we are . . . like the reality of “Forest Gump”. Tom Hanks (spirit) is the reality and when given the opening, can change the script of our Forest Gump role, or personality.
So it seems that at some point in our experience we come to the awareness that something in our life is missing. We feel an emptiness, a hole in the donut, a hole in our soul. We long to fill up that nebulous empty space, yearn to satiate that nebulous whatever is missing. (We have experienced how this works . . . “I’ll get more/more/more money, education, relationships, stuff . . .” We self medicate to take the edge off, become addicted, and become a human doing . . . filling up the space with doing stuff. It doesn’t work, as in can’t fix the problem at the level of the problem.)
And it also seems that what we feel is missing . . . what we have been longing for . . . is connection and Oneness. We initially go with, “My longing is for a deeper relationship with God . . . with Spirit. I want to feel and experience that connection with Spirit . . . with all life. I want to have the experience of Oneness, the wholeness of everything . . . see and experience the expression of God in everything.”
And in time we come to, “Ooops, I’ve been longing for a personal relationship with Spirit . . . I am that which I have been seeking. I’ve been experience separation and seeking my tribe . . . I am already connected. I am an individualize expression of God . . . God is all there is . . . and I am, as a spiritual being, connected and one with all there is.”
Whhhoooooa . . . Awesome. And we begin to breathe again . . . breathe deeply . . . Owning our space as a valued and vital, loved and beloved part of the Whole . . . the hole in our soul is filled in the wholeness of Spirit.
So now, how do we put feet under the realization of our connectedness . . . our oneness.
Let’s consider facebook . . . (some folks gaged . . . some pumped the air, “Woo Hoo”. Our time was up and we confirmed in song . . . You are the face of God . . . I hold you in my heart . . . You are a part of me . . . You are the face of God!)